Why are we trying so hard to be the person you don’t want to be. Does it makes you happy? Are you willing enough? Are you sincere with yourself? Does it takes time? Does it happen instantly? Does it happen spontaneously? In the end, it all boils down to the outcome of how satisfy are you with the change. You may or may not adapt to the change. Time is of the essence. I came here to be me.
Some people feel like they don’t deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.
—Jon Krakauer, Into The Wild
Outside the NBC Studios - 07.26
Good luck Chuck.
So my 23rd birthday was awesome (minus the mini couple drama) all in all. Met my family and friends at 10.30pm at Cash Studios. Sang our heart out! The skull cake came in a wee bit early before midnight. Lol moment, but everyone sang me a birthday song anyway. So paiseh ok. Halfway singing, Liyana came! Halfway singing, Aein / Rizal and Ming Keat left too. The singing continued till 1.55am. So the smokers were all smoking. Mummy was like hurry up and smoke and I was like, ‘huh? Why the hurry?’ The next thing I knew, I saw Aein and she don-ed her handmade tutu on me and zappp I was blindfolded. Eveything happened so fast, I started crying cause I hate being blindfolded. Really. Got in the car. I can only hear voices. Some voices were missing. All I know was that my cousin, Liyana and Aein were with me. Got out, parade cum embarrased myself in the crowd. When they told me to climed up the steps, I knew right there what I’m about to get myself into. Fucking GMAX. Bam! I was right. This time round was the swing. I begged and cried telling them I want to get down the steps and please open my blindfold. They grant me my command. Fuck no am I going to ride that fucking swing all by myself. Yanie, Aein, Liyana and Fazlina agreed to sit on the mega swing with me! I was so elated but too scared at the same time. I was still crying, mind you. Sat, pull & swing! Only the video can describe how we all felt. After that we girls turned mum. Sat in the car like a vege. Went our separate ways and bid our goodbyes. I’m very thankful for that night and those who made it happen. I love each and everyone of you, be it you’re there or not.
PS // Reached home and hello Mohd Hafiz. Another story unfolds.